Third Term

Third term is the term that everyone hates, the term that grades seem to go down and no one knows why, and the term that seems to last FOREVER! I hate third term! I don't know what it is that makes it so bad, but it's just awful.

I feel like my motivation level has dropped. I don't see the point in finishing my math homework or studying for a test. I don't know where all my motivation went. I compare this year to last year and so much as changed. Tomorrow is the last day of the term and even though my grades aren't too hot, I'm not freaking out about it. Sure, I am crying, but it's not like it was last year.

High School isn't turning out like it's supposed to. I was supposed to be getting a 4.0. That hasn't happened. I look at some of my friends and wonder why they can do it and I can't. It makes me feel dumb, it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong, and it makes me feel like my life is spinning out of control. Sure, it would be nice to just blame it on my home situation, but I don't know if that's all of it. I mean I was going through the same thing last year. What makes this year so much harder? Why can't I handle it this year? Where has my motivation gone?

My lack of motivation and a case of the third term blues has killed my grades. I realize that my grade situation is my fault. I don't blame it on any of my teachers. It was ME who decided not to study for that test, it was ME who thought that taking a little break would be good, and it was ME who killed my grades this term. I would love to blame it on so many other things, but the reality is this situation is my fault.

This is once again one of my venting post. I know that anyone my age will read this and agree with me that third term is the worst of the four terms. Third term ends tomorrow. Hopefully fourth term is better.

First Date

A very exciting time for girls is when they get asked out on their very first date. This last Saturday I went on my first date. It was kind of a big deal. I got asked on Friday (the day after my birthday) and I was very excited. Getting ready for this date took a lot of time/effort.

1.  Had to go to the mall for a new outfit.
2. Shower
3. Blow dry hair
4. Curl hair
5. Put on make-up
6. Get dressed

It may not be a long list but it definitely took a while to get all those things done. After it was all done I looked like this:

Just checking out the back

*Thank you Julie for doing my hair and Robyn for going to the mall with me and picking out an outfit. I wouldn't have been able to do it without you two.*

I was all dolled up by 7:00. I was very excited, I had major butterflies, and I was watching out the window. Time passed and he still wasn't at my house. I began to panic. I was pacing around my house. I couldn't sit there and just hang out. I thought he was just going to bail. He than texted me and told me that the other couple we were going with was running late. I still had butterflies, but I was much more calm.

When my date came to the door I raced my dad to the door trying to get it first. I won that battle. I opened the door and introduced my date to my dad. Let's just say that it was interesting. My dad then asked the question, "When will you have her home?" My date replied, "When does she need to be home?" My dads answer was, "Between 11:00 and 11:30." I said goodbye and got out of there as fast as possible.

On this date we went bowling and ate pizza. At first I was not doing too hot at the whole bowling thing. Not good at all. I went five rounds without knocking down a single pin. I was so embarrassed. My date was getting strikes and I was getting nothing. By the second game I doing much better so I wasn't too embarrassed. After I got over the whole trying to impress him thing it was actually fun.

As we were on our way home my date told the kid driving to put the car in neutral, push on the gas, and then hurry and put it into drive. I'm looking at my date thinking, "Are you kidding me right now?" Let's just say the car broke down. We heard this big thump sound and we knew something was wrong. We all got out, because we seriously thought the car was going to blow up. We looked under the car and there sitting on the road was the transmission. The kid who was driving was freaking out. He kept saying that his dad was going to kill him. I had to call my dad to come get me. AWESOME!

It was definitely a very interesting first date. I will have some funny stories for my kids one day. The night was up and down, but in the end I had fun. I think I could get used to this whole dating thing!

16!! Part II

The last time I posted I was going to be turning 16. I am now 16. Very exciting! Picture explain more than words so here they are:

Just the D.M.V. at 7 a.m.

Kristin and I have the same birthday! No big or anything.



Just being pampered



We enjoyed talking to Jason aka Son! He was clearly flirting with Kristin!
This was also the child that told Kristin that if she wanted a boyfriend she could have one!
Apparently it's that easy.



The end result. Kristin basically pooped her pants when the lady told her I had already paid.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTIN!



The beautiful flowers my boyfriend gave me (Kristin)





BEST present of my life. Zac Efron on a horse. THANKS KAYDEE!



Max and I putting Zac on my ceiling! PERFECT place!



Just admiring Zac

Thanks to everyone who made my 16th birthday AMAZING!

THE BIG 1 6 !!!

Tomorrow would be the day that I have been counting down to for months. Here it is one day away. I am very excited. LICENSE! Watch out roads here I come. I passed my driving test last night and tomorrow morning at 7:15 I can be found at the DMV. I got my hair done today and got a new shirt just for my license picture. I realize that you will barley see my shirt on my license picture, but it was a good excuse for a new shirt.

Although I am very excited about turning 16 I hate the obligation of doing something HUGE for your 16th birthday. I realize that it's a very big deal. Getting your license is personally the best thing about a 16th birthday. The thing about turning 16 is you are expected to throw some big old party. If you are like me you don't do parties. I hate throwing parties. I feel like if people aren't having fun it's my fault. I just don't do parties so when people ask me what I'm doing for my 16th birthday I just tell them that I am getting my license and hanging out.

I decided that I didn't want to go to school. I mean it's my 16th birthday! No need for school. I don't have much planned for tomorrow, but I am getting my license for sure and going to get pedicures with Kristin. It's funny that Kristin and I have the same birthday. People say we are so much alike plus we are really close, so why not have our birthday on the same day? It makes perfect sense to me. It makes me very happy that we have the same birthday. It's one of those things that is surprising to learn, but once you know it it makes perfect sense.

Time has flown by. I am almost 16!!! 16!! Holy cow! Last year when I turned 15 I thought that it was going to take FOREVER till I turned 16. It hasn't, the year has flown by. I feel like my life will begin tomorrow. I am currently dead, but tomorrow I will be alive. The freedom of driving is very exciting. Not having to wait for your parents to take you somewhere or the worry of how you are going to get places.

My mom and I are going to kind of co-parent the van (PATTY) Kaydee and I named the van Patty. It just fits. I'm not going to get Patty this weekend, but my dad said that I can borrow his car. Very exciting. I obviously have plans to party it up this weekend.

In a couple of hours the big 1 6 will be here. I will be the big 1 6!! In case you haven't caught on by now I am very excited. I rounded it to a couple hours, but really I know the exact amount of time. Pathetic? I don't think so. So although I won't be having a grand old party I will be having a GREAT 16th birthday!!

*Pictures to come soon*

Movie Quotes

Movies! Got to love them. There are some movies that you can't help but quote. Some of these quotes I want to say to someone someday. Others are just fun to quote:

"You know what? I wish I was at an Arby's 'cause there's better food and cooler people there!"         

-Baby Mama

"Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought, useless and disappointing."

 - Cinderella Story

"What do you want to be married to me for, anyhow? - Young Melanie

"So I can kiss you anytime I want." - Young Jake

- Sweet Home Alabama

"Holla at your boy."

"When I close my eyes I see you for what you really are which is UGGLLY"

 - She's the man

"You can tell she's a good dancer by the way she drinks her soda pop."

"You can do this, but that would require you to stop snacking on children while they dream."

"To the window to the wall........"

-The Proposal

"When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not; it's just the beginning. You might have to meet a few more jerks, but one day you're gonna meet a boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Like the sun rises and sets with you."

 - 17 Again

"I don't know what your generation's fascination is with documenting your every thought... but I can assure you, they're not all diamonds. "Roman is having an OK day, and bought a Coke Zero at the gas station. Raise the roof." Who gives a rat's ass?"

-Easy A 

In a way this post is me wishing my life was a movie. So if I decide to use a movie quote in my life don't judge. Movies just know how to word things better than me!

"Crushes" II

This whole "crush" situation is getting a little old. I thought I had learned my lesson. My last "crush" resulted in this post.

Since that post I have had two more "serious" crushes. They all start/end the same way.

1. A Innocent friendship
2. Feelings begin to form
3. You debate if you really do like them
4. You start trying to impress them (making sure you get up on time to do your hair/makeup)
5. You start texting each other
6. You start asking each other if they like you. They will then ask you the same question.
7. They find out you like them
8. Awkward
9. Things then fade

The above list is exactly went wrong with one of my latest "crushes". He was nice. He was always the smiling kid that I looked forward to seeing in the halls. It so happened that I would see him and his friend walking down the hall everyday at lunch. There was always a 5 min conversation with them, then we went our separate ways. This kid and I started to talk a lot. I could talk to him easily and know that there was no judgement in anyway.

It all went down hill when we started to text. I asked him who he liked and he described her as, "A girl who is in 10th grade. She has short brown hair, and we've been texting a lot lately." Naturally, I am thinking he's talking about me. Turns out no. He wasn't talking about me. After that I felt stupid. One day his friend asked me if I liked him. I told him that I had, but didn't anymore. He told this kid. That's where it went awkward. Sure, we still say hi to each other in the hall, but it's not the same. Having a "crush" on him ruined our friendship.

This is the list from my most recent crush:

1. Friendship
2. Laughing and having fun in a class
3. Totally flirting
4. Texting
5. Did I mention I have a girlfriend."
6. "I can't text you anymore. My girlfriend doesn't want me to."
7. Days later (after not texting him for days) random text from a random number "Stop texting my boyfriend, please."

AWESOME! Probably one of the most embarrassing things of my life. The problem was that by the time I knew about his girlfriend I had formed a fatty crush on him. The thing is that after he told me to stop texting him, I did for the most part. I texted him a couple times about our class, but that was it. Then tonight I get a text from the "Girlfriend!" I don't think I've ever felt more stupid. I just hope they live happily ever after!!

My "crushes!" I swear! They don't ever work out. I feel like nothing good comes from "crushes." It just turns perfectly good friendships into awkward situations. I guess if your "crush" likes you back it's a good thing, but I've never had that happen. In my last "CRUSH" post I said how without "crushes" things would be boring. Yes, I still think that's true, but sometimes "crushes" hurt. Maybe that's why they call them "crushes" they CRUSH you!

This post isn't meant to kill any ones "crushing" dreams. I'm sure that other people have positive "crush" experiences. One of these days........maybe.