"Crushes"

"Crushes," we all have them. Some are silly little crushes and others are more serious.

I have had many "crushes". The very first was in day-care. Yes, daycare! I was only five and I thought this kid was amazing. I would try to be around him as much as possible. Looking back I'm sure he thought I was a creep. In 1st grade I liked this kid names Josh. I soon realized that he was already taken by the popular girl, Ashley. My "crush" days ended for about two years, then when I moved to Orem there was a boy in my class that I liked a lot. Both my friend and I liked him, but of course he like my friend. I was so jealous of her. I would go around telling people that I was going to marry this boy and that I would never like anyone else. Silly me! What was I thinking?

Well, we aren't going to go over every single "crush" I've had, because we would be here for awhile. The thing about "crushes" is that deep down you know this guy/girl would never like you back. It's really just a fantasy. No matter how hard you try to impress this person it just doesn't work. Even though you know you have no chance you can't help but like them.

Even worse is when you think you have a chance. You get your hopes up for no reason. When you find out they really don't like you it hurts. You got your hopes up just to have them fall.

We see this pattern in movies all the time.

I saw this movie called. "Life as we know it" last night and it was really good. It was one of those movies that you knew that in the end the girl and boy would end up together. They had always liked each other, but they were both seeing other people. The thought that they had no chance to be with the other, but in the end it all worked out.

Unfortunately life isn't like the love movies. We all wish they were, but they aren't.

Now, I'm sure you are asking yourself why I am writing about this. I honestly don't know. I recently had a little "crush" on this kid. Every time I was around him I got butterflies, and I couldn't help but think about him. It was the gitty feeling you get when you see him. Then one day I found out I had no chance. Once I realized that, the gitty feeling went away. I mean, really what's the point when they don't like you back?

I realize that this post is a little weird. I've just been thinking about this a lot lately. I know though life wouldn't be the same without "crushes." We really would have nothing to look forward to. So please keep "crushing."