Gratitude

Thanksgiving this year was pretty great.

I have so much to be grateful for!

There's a first time for everything

Today I got in my first car accident. Let's just say I would highly advise you to pay attention while driving, I've heard it helps. Just saying.

Two Years Seems WAY Too Far Away

These two lovely young men enter the M.T.C. tomorrow.

I know that they will make GREAT missionaries, but I don't want to see them go.  They will do great things! I miss them already. I knew I was running out of time, but it came too fast. I hung out with Jeremy as much as I could, but in the end it still wasn't enough. 

Then his farewell came around, and it still hadn't quite set in.

Today he called me and informed me that he was at the High School. My stomach began to churn. I didn't want this time to come. I small chatted and tried to dance around the subject. Then he said he had to go. As I was holding back tears I walked him to his car. After we said goodbye I started walking into the High School. Before I knew it I had tears running down my face. I didn't think I would really cry, but there I was. 

Both Jeremy and Danny will make great missionaries. They will be a blessing in many peoples lives. Although I am going to miss them deeply I wish them both the best of luck!!

Bro Tip #4328

If you smell good it makes you 10 times hotter!

The escaped feeling

Tonight I felt something I haven't felt in a long time. A feeling that I've missed. The feeling where your heart skips a beat, because you're with him or the feeling of butterflies when you accidentally touch. I miss the gitty feeling of having a "crush." For so long these feelings have escaped me. I haven't felt like this for a long time. I almost forgot what it felt like. Only problem is the boy that's giving me these feelings is leaving on his mission in t-minus 21 days. I worry that the feeling will leave with him. I will try and use up all the time I have left with this boy. But for now it's good to know that the feelings are slowly coming back.

First Kiss

Every girl dreams of the day she will get her first kiss. The more you get older the more you dream. You get your hopes up for this perfect fairytale scene:

The harsh reality is no first kiss is like this. As girls we set our expectations very high. My expectations were exceptionally high. I wanted it to be the perfect fairytale, but when it came it was quite the opposite. I blame movies for this false expectation. Movies make it look so glamorous.

Sure it was at sunset, but it wasn't how I thought it would be. I was scared. I didn't know what I was doing, but I went for it anyways. After dreaming about it for so long it was nothing like I had hoped it would be. I'm pretty sure I should be twitter patted or something, but I'm not at all.

First kisses are always going to be awkward and quite frankly, weird. But one good thing that came out of all of this is I don't have to worry about the pressure of my first kiss anymore.

High school seems to be harder this year. I'm not quite sure what it is. I don't have much motivation to get my homework done. My grades aren't too hot, and I don't really care. I need to care and I tell myself to care, but I just don't. I keep telling myself that I'll fix it later, but I'm running out of time.

Wonder why this picture is here? Well it's because I got a job at good old Papa Murphy's. That's right. Kind of a big deal. Feel free to come visit. Things are starting to look up.