The Comfort

Isn't it amazing the comfort we get from a bed? It's as if we think that by burying ourselves under the covers everything will go away. Whatever our problems are go away for those few moments.

Maybe that's why it's so hard to get out of bed, because we'd rather stay in bed all day and not have to face the world.

Meredith Grey

Yet another show has taken over my life, Grey's Anatomy. When you get so involved in a T.V. show you almost want to be that character. I wanted to be like Rory Gilmore and now I want to be like Meredith Grey.

 

I so wish I could say things the way she does....

 

Some characters just make you want to be better, that's Meredith Grey for me.

The Lying Game

Have you ever thought about why we lie? Why we lie to not only others, but also to ourselves? A very wise Meredith Grey once said, "We lie because the truth...the truth freaking hurts."

I think we lie to protect ourselves or to protect others. Perfect example:

I have a friend who has had her heartbroken recently. I'm also friends with the boy that broke her heart.When I hear things about what he's doing now or who he's dating, I'm always torn. Do I tell her about it? Or do I wait until she finds out on her own? Either way, she's going to be hurt.

We all say we would rather the person just tell us. Because that would make it better, right? But no matter where the news comes from its still going to suck.

 

Maybe, things really would be easier if our noses grew when we told a lie. 

One Year

It's been one year since we started talking again. Since he signed my yearbook:

It's kind of insane how much can change in one year. How many memories can be made and how many tears can be shed. Part of me smiles at the memories while the other part of me wants to curl up and cry. A couple of months ago I would have told you I was over him, but as the one year mark approached I realized I wasn't over him. Not even close.

It's hard for me to imagine not having him around this summer. It's hard to think about the adventures we had last year and not being able to have those same adventures this year. I've spent a year hoping that what I had with him was going to eventually come back, when deep down, I knew it never would.

What he wrote in my yearbook this year proved that everything had changed.

I often ask myself if I miss him or the feeling I had when I was with him? Truth is, I liked who I was when I was with him.

 

Maybe, one of these days I'll be able to see him and feel nothing. One can only hope. 

Jr. Year (Re-cap)

The end of Jr. Year is approaching. This year flew by. Here are some highlights from my Junior year of High School.

Today in Newman's he gave us all a "Newmeaward." Mine fit me perfectly. I sure will miss that man.

In a few months I'll be starting my Senior Year. Weird.

The Games

The mind games that people play with each other are kind of ridiculous, especially the games we play with the opposite sex. We don't want to fully like someone until we know if they like us. That's where the games come into play. Playing hard to get is one of  the oldest trick in the book.

Recently, I decided to play hard to get. Once I started to do this the kid I was crushing on completely backed off. I wonder if he felt like this:

I denied liking this boy, but once he stopped trying I realized how much I actually liked him. I wanted so bad for him to fight for me and when he didn't I was bummed.

I had a friend tell me that if he didn't stand on top of a coffee cart and declare his love for me, he wasn't worth it.

Maybe, one day I'll find my Seth Cohen.

Truth is:

Most boys suck. They lead you on and just when you start to think things might be going somewhere, they turn around and dump you to the curb. Luckily for me, I've found a boy who I know will be there for me no matter what. He's hilarious, witty, unusual, and the perfect guy for me.

Seth Cohen

We're in love!