One Year

It's been one year since we started talking again. Since he signed my yearbook:

It's kind of insane how much can change in one year. How many memories can be made and how many tears can be shed. Part of me smiles at the memories while the other part of me wants to curl up and cry. A couple of months ago I would have told you I was over him, but as the one year mark approached I realized I wasn't over him. Not even close.

It's hard for me to imagine not having him around this summer. It's hard to think about the adventures we had last year and not being able to have those same adventures this year. I've spent a year hoping that what I had with him was going to eventually come back, when deep down, I knew it never would.

What he wrote in my yearbook this year proved that everything had changed.

I often ask myself if I miss him or the feeling I had when I was with him? Truth is, I liked who I was when I was with him.

 

Maybe, one of these days I'll be able to see him and feel nothing. One can only hope. 

Jr. Year (Re-cap)

The end of Jr. Year is approaching. This year flew by. Here are some highlights from my Junior year of High School.

Today in Newman's he gave us all a "Newmeaward." Mine fit me perfectly. I sure will miss that man.

In a few months I'll be starting my Senior Year. Weird.

The Games

The mind games that people play with each other are kind of ridiculous, especially the games we play with the opposite sex. We don't want to fully like someone until we know if they like us. That's where the games come into play. Playing hard to get is one of  the oldest trick in the book.

Recently, I decided to play hard to get. Once I started to do this the kid I was crushing on completely backed off. I wonder if he felt like this:

I denied liking this boy, but once he stopped trying I realized how much I actually liked him. I wanted so bad for him to fight for me and when he didn't I was bummed.

I had a friend tell me that if he didn't stand on top of a coffee cart and declare his love for me, he wasn't worth it.

Maybe, one day I'll find my Seth Cohen.

Truth is:

Most boys suck. They lead you on and just when you start to think things might be going somewhere, they turn around and dump you to the curb. Luckily for me, I've found a boy who I know will be there for me no matter what. He's hilarious, witty, unusual, and the perfect guy for me.

Seth Cohen

We're in love!

Who needs it? Not me!

I'm Addicted

The O.C.

I'm ready for Summer so I can waste time on these two things and not feel guilty.

"Just Friends"

The begging question, can guys and girls really be "just friends." There are many opinions on this subject. Some say yes while others say no.

I don't think guys and girls can be "just friends." Either the guy or the girl will want something more to happen. While one person may think they are fine being "just friends" the other will secretly wish for something more.

Then, there's always the dreaded "Friend Zone." Being put into the "Friend Zone" is never a fun time. Often times, we let ourselves get thrown into this zone. It's the zone where we go when we tell ourselves, "I'd rather be friends than be nothing." But being "just friends" isn't always good. Most the time those feelings don't just disappear. Your "friend" will think that you are perfectly content on being "just friends," but in reality you're still wishing someday things will work out. 

So...if you think you and your "friend" are good at being "just friends" you're fooling yourself.