She's 17!!

Today is this gorgeous girls birthday!!

 

She's pretty much amazing. I don't know what I would do without her. I can give you 17 good reasons to have a friend like her:

1. She will listen to you when you cry.
2. She will imitate teachers with you.
3. She will give you looks and you know exactly what she's saying with her looks.
4. She will make you re-enact your first kiss.
5. She will take you on many adventures.
6. She will make you laugh everyday.
7. She will throw little tantrums and you have to assure her that everything will be ok.
8. She will name anything and everything.
9. She will tell you how her body feels and/or how you feel.
10. She will teach you how to love to dance.
11. She will ask a guy to Sadie's for you (even though you don't want to go)
12. She will send you hilarious texts that you have to save on your phone just so you can read them later.
13. She will tell you her honest opinion.
14. She will give your mother love advice.
15. She will give you advice.
16. She will be patient, even though you've told her/talked to her about the same problem a million times.
17. She will be the best friend you or anyone could ask for.

 I am so lucky to have such a wonderful friend!!

 

Love you BABE!

It SUCKS!

Nobody likes getting their heartbroken. It's not something someone looks forward to and it's not something you can prepare yourself for. I personally had no idea how much pain a heartbreak could cause, until it happened. I went into a relationship knowing that I was going to get hurt in the end, but there was no way for me to prepare myself for the pain that was to come.

Months have passed and I'm still not over this boy. I've watched as my friend has had her heartbroken and it's brought back so many memories that still hurt. I watch as she hurts and I hurt for her. I like to think that I can help her and give her advice, but how can you give someone advice when you still need advice yourself? I still need closure that I have no idea how to get.

I read this quote the other day, "Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be." It's so true, but in the moment of such heartache it's hard to believe. It's hard to think logically. Friends will tell you to get over him and that you're way to good for him and even though you know it's true, you still don't believe it. You still wonder why and you still want things to go back to the way they once were.

It's hard to talk to people about such heartache when you are 16. Because you can't possibly know anything about love when you're 16 years old. I hate saying that I loved him, because everyone questions that. Telling me that I don't even know what love is. How does anyone really know what love is? Since when does it have one criteria?

To put it into two words, IT SUCKS! I honestly didn't know such pain existed. As cheesy as that sounds it's true. I know that I will continue to get heartbroken, but I wonder if it will ever get easier? I hope so, because this feeling sucks, and I'm tired of feeling it. I'm in a funk that I can't seem to shake. I wish he cared about all the damage he's caused me, but he doesn't. The worst part is, if he called me today and wanted to hangout again, I, without hesitation would do it.

Gratitude

Thanksgiving this year was pretty great.

I have so much to be grateful for!

There's a first time for everything

Today I got in my first car accident. Let's just say I would highly advise you to pay attention while driving, I've heard it helps. Just saying.

Two Years Seems WAY Too Far Away

These two lovely young men enter the M.T.C. tomorrow.

I know that they will make GREAT missionaries, but I don't want to see them go.  They will do great things! I miss them already. I knew I was running out of time, but it came too fast. I hung out with Jeremy as much as I could, but in the end it still wasn't enough. 

Then his farewell came around, and it still hadn't quite set in.

Today he called me and informed me that he was at the High School. My stomach began to churn. I didn't want this time to come. I small chatted and tried to dance around the subject. Then he said he had to go. As I was holding back tears I walked him to his car. After we said goodbye I started walking into the High School. Before I knew it I had tears running down my face. I didn't think I would really cry, but there I was. 

Both Jeremy and Danny will make great missionaries. They will be a blessing in many peoples lives. Although I am going to miss them deeply I wish them both the best of luck!!

Bro Tip #4328

If you smell good it makes you 10 times hotter!

The escaped feeling

Tonight I felt something I haven't felt in a long time. A feeling that I've missed. The feeling where your heart skips a beat, because you're with him or the feeling of butterflies when you accidentally touch. I miss the gitty feeling of having a "crush." For so long these feelings have escaped me. I haven't felt like this for a long time. I almost forgot what it felt like. Only problem is the boy that's giving me these feelings is leaving on his mission in t-minus 21 days. I worry that the feeling will leave with him. I will try and use up all the time I have left with this boy. But for now it's good to know that the feelings are slowly coming back.